Monday, 29 February 2016

Father in-law RIP

Father in-law past away early this morning. Talking to myself the night before he left this world, I will hold my tear, just like I did to my dad. I can't stop tear run down in funerals, even to people hardly know, I cried nearly all day when my big grand-ma die, I hardly know this grand-ma, she hardly visit us. But I cry none stop nearly all day in her funeral, My other grand-ma hate me cry... she light up matches to stop me crying, and that don't help, no tear in the end but I still cry! I am long wind when I cry. No one can stop me, pain in the butt I am sometimes when I was a little girl. There isn't a drop over my own dad's. My love to him turn to hate, one is my own dad and one is my father in-law, both I do love very much. I know they love me too, but their love are selfish! They only care about themselves? Did they think about us? Pain they dump behind... well, I shouldn't get it all out again, a lot of you already heard read about my pain my hate my moan too many times. I don't want to born you people again in this post. For more read visit: Mei's writer dream. Enjoy!

Good bye g-dad! Rest in Peace. It's my father in-law, I like follow hubby and daughter call him g-dad. He is a very kind man in many ways... he is a real English gentleman, he will hold door for lady, he have all the English gentleman manner, not many like him this day, he is kind in many ways, and he is helpful never say no to anyone and he is clever too he can fix many things if you need a hand. 

But I still want to say... he is the world worst father in-law, All he think is about himself. 17 years living under his roof I lost my hubby and my only daughter, his use his love and spoil steal their heart. I lost my hubby and my only daughter. I will never forget his love, forgive him? I think I had done that, I will not be here talking to you two if I am still angry! I once said to him and hubby. How many live with in-law these days... we are doing not bad, I am proud to say. 

I Hate people stamp you on just a little things they read online... so and so are difficult to live with... That really put me off when I hear that, you can't hit everyone on the same boat. Lots people smoke, drink, take drug with the illness, did I? I am too easy... 


Well, I don't know what I try to do with this post, but anyway, RIP g-dad, Love you! I love you more then my dad, you never moan, you care, you help me many things when I need a hand, yes, you had many things I hate, but you're gone now, I let you off! Miss you G-DAD!

7 comments:

Linda Kay said...

It looks like you have many mixed feelings about this father in law. So sorry he was a difficult man in your life. Best wishes.

Katy Mei Kuen WW said...

Thanks for your comment Linda! He is a nice kind man in many ways! He hardly moan about house work. He is kind and helpful. He do washing up, the laundry, drive my daughter to school when I am ill, feed the dog, pick the poo. He is easy to live with then my own dad. We did have a few drama but we managed got pass it. But 8 years ago, drama is a bit too much, I moved out live on my own. Maybe I should years ago... I cry like mad at funeral, but not a tear at my own dad's. I will not cry for g-dad I told hubby this morning but tear won't stop when I think of the kind things g-dad did, I forgot forgive all the bad things he did.

Mariette VandenMunckhof-Vedder said...

Dearest Katy Mei,
You just hold on to the good memories and let go of the rest!
It is very complicated to live with in-laws and not many people in the western world are doing that.
So let's hope peace will be and no bitterness.
Hugs,
Mariette

Katy Mei Kuen WW said...

I did it for 17 years living with in-law, I am doing not bad, just hate some people said. I am difficult to live with, because they read a little about my illness. It hurt and it come from one of my brother. How much he read he know about my illness? All he know is money money grow on his head...

Tamago said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, Mei. It sounds you have mixed feelings about your father-in-law but it's great you find many positive things about him despite other negative experiences xo

Katy Mei Kuen WW said...

Thank you Tamago! I should feel happy and look forward for the future. But... well, I just don't have anymore battery to look after all their clutters... let GOD do the tidy up! I will die if I go home... just seeing will kill me. Hubby daughter not much different... they do better then g-dad!

Katy Mei Kuen WW said...

ET want to go home... but... I really don't know what to do with the road in front... GOD, can you drop me a few words.