Tuesday, 4 November 2014

Talking to myself... :-)

I should have my photoblog in a new Google account and I have one already for it. But don't know why I didn't use it. I don't really want the photoblog have link with this blog But thinking the big number in some post might do good for the photoblog. Still don't understand those big number behind g+1 mean? They look yum but are they real? The count go up and down and sometime it move and disappeared and come back. When I still building my photoblog, it was set private but I have big number count already and it's over 300k in just few days. The g+1 count going up and down like yoyo every day, it's on the top left corner of the dashboard in the home page, very strange! In Mei's Steamy Kitchen my higher g+1 count is 49286 for my old post call "I make it!" I can understand why, the writing story and writing is good. What i don't understand is how come a new blog still in processing and not for public to view and the g+1 count is up and down like yoyo, in just a few days it over 300k something if I havn't got it wrong, I show hubby and he haven't a glue what is that mean. If the g+1 is like a facebook's like, but how I get the like if the blog is set for private just for the authors. And shoot up like a rocket in just a few days. I did open to public once for testing while I am still building the blog, only for a short time. The 300k g+1 number count is gone after I think its time to go public. After I changed the photoblog to public, the 300k g+1disappered. I was a bit disappointed. Nice to show off that big number on any blog, don't you think? I don't want big number on my facebook I will to busy to keep up with so many likes or comment. But this g+1 is different, there is no new to reply or visit back to say thank you. It's good stuff for business. But I am very diappointed with that game from g+1. I don't believed anything now, everywhere is porky pie... I work at home most my life for dad in the kitchen and not have much experience with the outside world, I did had a little more fun then my two little sisters. I had left dad's take away after some drama with him. I left his take away a few times and work in London to do sewing and work in other people takeaway. The wage is more then double what dad pay me. There is no wage for the first few years, work 7 days a week no holiday, 15 years only had 3 holidays, and he had the heart to say: "Give it to daughters is like give it to stranger!" What a dad! 3 daughter work like hell for him in that little oven hot kitchen from 16 to 35 before left home marry. Our kind loving dad we thought he is tell my little brother give it to daughter is like give it to stranger! Any yes two little brother did help in the shop two but its not like 3 elder daughter work like hell for him full time and and I work 7 days when he just take over the shop from uncle, The shop open 7 days a and all my sisters and brothers still at school, they all help when they come home, we also have a one full time staff and my aunty help too in the weekend, The takeaway is busy in the old days, everyone work like hell there. Its small and hot like a oven. I think we can have a medal for working there. Two brothers help too but that is still not fair. I am hurt! I do love my dad and thought he love us too but he is a real slaves driver using the daughter like this. No wonder he die alone in China and not a single one is with him when his passed away in the hospital. Mum have everyone with her when she die in hospital. I do believed sometime, you get what you do. So be kind!

I was young not have much worry about stuff with people and the world. I just don't like dad attitude with things at home. That is all, even mum told me to find job and leave dad when she saw me crying in the bathroom. She was so understanding at that moment. Mum understand my hardtime working in the kitchen and dad's attitude. She don't want me suffer more, Must be my last attend to leave the takeaway. I think 3 times I left dad's takeaway, twice dad ask me to come back. I was a little shock when mum saw me crying in the bathroom, my heart feel a little warm from my mum when she tell me to leave dad. She want me to be happy, my mum understand me she love me, she don't want to see me unhappy working all my life just for dad in the kitchen. Dad's attitude is stink. He is a very selfish man. God, it's all coming back, not really want to get this out again, but who care now, I don't care the whole world know... I write to get myself free... the pain, the worry the hurt that been hiding for too long, it need fresh air again! LOL... I don't know what I am writing here tonight but I love it. I am getting more and more love my writing now, wish I am still a little girl, I can start all over again at school to learn better English. Sharing the world with my friend Polarbear. I love you Polarbear! God, what is up tonight. Better stop now. Will vent more next time. Enjoy friends! Mei  (edited 16/9/2015)